My Separation of Perception and Zipped Information

This post is about my mental separation of information received from the outside world. The moment when I realized that I do that was when I once thought about the time spent with my boyfriend. I have found out that everything was separated into two parts - when I was getting some information from him and everything else. It still feels like my life was divided into the time I've spent with him (not necessarily physically with him) and the other part of my life when I was with my friends, did things that I liked etc. Even when I went to the cinema with him it is still separated in my head between my impressions of the movie and the fact that I was there with him. Quite frequently it is separated so much that I have to spend some time before I realize that different facts correspond each other and happened at the same moment.

I guess this is some kind of an anti-stress block that my mind put on the memories so that I will not remember all the aspects of facts.

Continuing with the theme of mental blocks, I have tried a new one on Sunday. This one is for zipping information which can obviously confuse or hurt me. Zipping technique together with the skill to separate information is a perfect tool to save myself from unnecessary distractions and yet let me enjoy the light and happy memories. I have zipped the information concerning my relationship with a person and put that away. I know that if I keep it away for too long, it will explode one day. So, I am waiting for some time to pass so I can unzip the info and think about it without bleeding too much. I will find the time to evaluate the experience and analyze what happened with a sharp and clear mind and without emotional interruptions.

I've just checked how it works - it is awesome. I met with that person, we had lunch, looked through the photos which we made together and... It was just fine. I really like the way it went, we talked about the news and plans and chatted about other stuff, and it was nice. I feel happy and sound. Anyway, it is a good thing for me.

I give myself a week and a half of this calmness. If nothing happens, I will slowly and cautiously unzip all I have in the dark part of my mind and think about it. I doubt I will postpone it. This time limit is more like the minimum for me. I don't want it to happen any sooner.