My failure

Ok, ok, I admit it. I fail. OK. That's not really ok, but anyway.
Something has gone wrong. I mean I did not get it right from the very beginning so now I have a lot of troubles but I promise, I really really really promise (I know you can't say it like that, but... huh) that I'll work even harder the next semester so oh please, my brain, help me pass these exams.
Now I'm done with that weird stuff and I should say that it is even worse than it was during the summer. But now I've just realized how much I changed mentally. I grew up and quite fast, too.
But I got down as well. I am getting what I deserve, of course. And I want to be better (stronger, faster...) but I myself keep me from going further.
I've got tomorrow till the next exam. One day. And I'm gonna do this.