The sadness is almost unbearable. Everything that comes to my mind tries to crash me down.
I can't even hate myself for my mistakes. I can't set any penance for myself either, I'm not that strong. I'm too sympathetic with broken people.
I work too slow, I waste my time, I am not that knowledgeable and my memory holds on to feelings only.
It's a wonder how I still manage, but then again I have lost a will to die long ago. And now I'm losing my dreams and aspirations. Can I please die inside too if I am dying outside?
While I mend some parts, other parts of life get cracks.
I feel so lonely being with the one I don't love. But I'm good at screwing things up. I thought I would last longer, though.
Coffee will be my medicine today. I have rarely felt so sad in the morning. But life keeps going on, which is a little bit annoying. And yet again I will trust myself that I will change and everything will be alright. I will be deceived again.
I can't even hate myself for my mistakes. I can't set any penance for myself either, I'm not that strong. I'm too sympathetic with broken people.
I work too slow, I waste my time, I am not that knowledgeable and my memory holds on to feelings only.
It's a wonder how I still manage, but then again I have lost a will to die long ago. And now I'm losing my dreams and aspirations. Can I please die inside too if I am dying outside?
While I mend some parts, other parts of life get cracks.
I feel so lonely being with the one I don't love. But I'm good at screwing things up. I thought I would last longer, though.
Coffee will be my medicine today. I have rarely felt so sad in the morning. But life keeps going on, which is a little bit annoying. And yet again I will trust myself that I will change and everything will be alright. I will be deceived again.
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