I have a feeling that I do what lonely people do. And I hang out with lonely people just because of our mutual loneliness.
I look in the mirror and do not recognize myself. My eyes changed. My clothes do not suit my body any more.
Soon my consciousness will adjust to the current state of my life. But my mind numbs upon my will to distract myself from gloomy thoughts. I think I still will have moments of uncontrollable laugh or giggles and those moments are almost the only ones when I feel happiness. And I am grateful for them.
And I will do what I have to do. But am I a person who stays by her word? Should I try to keep stupid promises I made to the person I did not really know. Should I keep any promises even if they are worthless or am I more practical and cold-headed person? What are the principles by which I should live?
I have a lot on my mind but time whooshes by and I can't slow it down. It's probably better this way - I don't have time or strength to be sad.
I look in the mirror and do not recognize myself. My eyes changed. My clothes do not suit my body any more.
Soon my consciousness will adjust to the current state of my life. But my mind numbs upon my will to distract myself from gloomy thoughts. I think I still will have moments of uncontrollable laugh or giggles and those moments are almost the only ones when I feel happiness. And I am grateful for them.
And I will do what I have to do. But am I a person who stays by her word? Should I try to keep stupid promises I made to the person I did not really know. Should I keep any promises even if they are worthless or am I more practical and cold-headed person? What are the principles by which I should live?
I have a lot on my mind but time whooshes by and I can't slow it down. It's probably better this way - I don't have time or strength to be sad.
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