I've come to the state where I doubt a lot of ideas that come to my mind. I mean ideas on my behavior or health or other aspect of my life.
That is the logical outcome of the experience I have had. I doubt my decisions because I have made bad ones and they had some unpleasant or even dangerous consequences (an intake of large amounts of salt water, for example). As the principle of survival and taking care for my health (mostly to keep my brain safe from any possible physical damage) is engraved deeply in my mind, I have come to the conclusion that I should not trust the person who is most dangerous for my brain (i.e. me).
And now, thinking about various problems and getting ideas of how to solve them or ideas of self-development I am slightly afraid that I might be wrong and might not even realize it. And though I know that I should be self-confident, now I tend to doubt my own thoughts. That gives me a certain amount of uneasiness and I worry about whether this will be a reason for the halt in my personal growth. Or maybe it's better this way as I'll be my own arbiter and I'll analyse my flow of thought more, while I am learning how to trust myself again.
That is the logical outcome of the experience I have had. I doubt my decisions because I have made bad ones and they had some unpleasant or even dangerous consequences (an intake of large amounts of salt water, for example). As the principle of survival and taking care for my health (mostly to keep my brain safe from any possible physical damage) is engraved deeply in my mind, I have come to the conclusion that I should not trust the person who is most dangerous for my brain (i.e. me).
And now, thinking about various problems and getting ideas of how to solve them or ideas of self-development I am slightly afraid that I might be wrong and might not even realize it. And though I know that I should be self-confident, now I tend to doubt my own thoughts. That gives me a certain amount of uneasiness and I worry about whether this will be a reason for the halt in my personal growth. Or maybe it's better this way as I'll be my own arbiter and I'll analyse my flow of thought more, while I am learning how to trust myself again.
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