Though it does not hurt me that much anymore, I still think about all this a lot.
I ponder over the concept of 'fighting for your love' - but what does that actually mean? I am not sure that I want to do anything about this, because we have talked so much with him, and he pretty much gave me his response. So, 'fighting' will bring him uneasiness and will probably end our friendship (or whatever we have between us).
It's not that I am going to give up on anything (i.e. my feelings for him), but I want to feel good about myself, not giving this 'miserable' presence of a broken-hearted person, who is not able to let go. I understand and respect his choice, but it is not OK with me, of course.
I know that I can be with him in a long-term relationship. He keeps telling me that I imagine him in my head to be an ideal person, but that's not true. That's just that I am willing to forgive and forget, I am accepting him for what he is, isn't that what your friends do anyways? I do that for different people for different reasons. It's not because I think that my friends are the best people in the world, but the are my people.
From time to time I have to stop the flow of my thoughts for I really start imagining my future in the least possible way to come. Ah, those romantic delusions that every girl has had at least once in her life.
What I am going to say is that whatever happens between us, I want to take it with all my dignity and pride.
And, well, be it a month, a year or a life for him to come to me, I will be there for him. But I don't want him to feel bad about anything. So, I'll just be there, picking my way of fighting for the one I care the most.
I ponder over the concept of 'fighting for your love' - but what does that actually mean? I am not sure that I want to do anything about this, because we have talked so much with him, and he pretty much gave me his response. So, 'fighting' will bring him uneasiness and will probably end our friendship (or whatever we have between us).
It's not that I am going to give up on anything (i.e. my feelings for him), but I want to feel good about myself, not giving this 'miserable' presence of a broken-hearted person, who is not able to let go. I understand and respect his choice, but it is not OK with me, of course.
I know that I can be with him in a long-term relationship. He keeps telling me that I imagine him in my head to be an ideal person, but that's not true. That's just that I am willing to forgive and forget, I am accepting him for what he is, isn't that what your friends do anyways? I do that for different people for different reasons. It's not because I think that my friends are the best people in the world, but the are my people.
From time to time I have to stop the flow of my thoughts for I really start imagining my future in the least possible way to come. Ah, those romantic delusions that every girl has had at least once in her life.
What I am going to say is that whatever happens between us, I want to take it with all my dignity and pride.
And, well, be it a month, a year or a life for him to come to me, I will be there for him. But I don't want him to feel bad about anything. So, I'll just be there, picking my way of fighting for the one I care the most.
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