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Back from statistics to my life.
These past few days were all about me - what I want and need, how I feel etc.
Well, that gave me a chill this evening. I have told myself to stop this policy before it changes me into what I don't want to be.
I am the person who likes to help people. I want to give them myself, completely and unconditionally. And yet my desires and intentions were not that pure lately.
So, I'm going to ask myself before I do anything else: what can I actually give, and is it worth the thing that I demand in return?
I really like to see people grow, to see them think about life, while gently guiding them to the optimistic state of mind.
I was amazed at how strong I became during these 3 years that I'm writing in this blog.
I can start a conversation with a total stranger and do not feel uncomfortable about it (vice versa most of the times).
I can bear with heart break of any kind.
I overcome my fears more easily.
Though, I may be in the ashes right now, I am sure I can rise and be even more powerful than I was before. And I know that I want people around me to have that power, too. I want to bring change into their lives. I should not want anything in return, neither should I cherish groundless hopes, even if they are so tempting.
Speaking of more realistic things: I have the next exam in 3 days and I should start cramming, the sooner the better.
Back from statistics to my life.
These past few days were all about me - what I want and need, how I feel etc.
Well, that gave me a chill this evening. I have told myself to stop this policy before it changes me into what I don't want to be.
I am the person who likes to help people. I want to give them myself, completely and unconditionally. And yet my desires and intentions were not that pure lately.
So, I'm going to ask myself before I do anything else: what can I actually give, and is it worth the thing that I demand in return?
I really like to see people grow, to see them think about life, while gently guiding them to the optimistic state of mind.
I was amazed at how strong I became during these 3 years that I'm writing in this blog.
I can start a conversation with a total stranger and do not feel uncomfortable about it (vice versa most of the times).
I can bear with heart break of any kind.
I overcome my fears more easily.
Though, I may be in the ashes right now, I am sure I can rise and be even more powerful than I was before. And I know that I want people around me to have that power, too. I want to bring change into their lives. I should not want anything in return, neither should I cherish groundless hopes, even if they are so tempting.
Speaking of more realistic things: I have the next exam in 3 days and I should start cramming, the sooner the better.
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