My Possibilities

Today I gave a ride to another guy. That's my way of picking guys, I guess. Just kidding, but that's exactly the reason why I began liking and dating my bf.
Anyhow, I really did think that I'd have liked to spend the whole night talking to that guy about Kalevala or something, and we took our time walking from the metro to my car, and I drove far too slow.
We finally ate together with Yura today. And he told me that he liked to know my opinion. That was one of the best compliments (and I don't get many). And, following the advice of a friend, I did not mention that I liked him (and hit me with a brick if I don't still).
I suppose, sometimes you don't have to bring drama to your life, it finds you.

Tonight I was on the phone with my bf and he fell asleep. But I could not just end the call like this or he would have woken up to the short beeps. So, I waited till he woke up on his own, I simply listened to his changing breathing. He did wake up after a little while and told me he was really sleepy. I could not help laughing because I was there awake for him. And he told me that I could laugh if I had found it funny for me, but he wanted to sleep. It was not the way I had imagined this episode to end. So nah.

And we spoke about his hatred and his last gf today. And I said that I am sorry for not bringing him joy and love enough, because he still thinks about her and he can't let it go. I personally think that if I was a better girlfriend he would have just accepted their break-up. And then I thought that I am not an exceptional person to somebody's life. Well, I know people who are these life-changing and exceptional for me. And I don't mean being a good friend. No, that's something different, ephemeral if you want. That's when you think about someone and you know that just one glimpse at her/his life changed yours forever. For me, they are Daria, Varya, Tanya from my English language courses. It was more about me, actually. But isn't everything in life all about you and how you deal with it?