My Mid-Winter Crisis and Survival

I finally broke today. It's been so long since I cried last time.
I woke up at 2:40 a.m. because of the pain in my throat. I guess I should have gargled with salt on Monday, but you know how it goes. I suppose it was aspirin that postponed my sickness for a few days.
So, I stayed at home today, missed the first seminar of a new subject.
Anyhow, I watched an episode of new Doctor Who, finished another book by Frei, ate a bowl of popcorn, listened to different music, slept a lot. I was just being ill.
I have zachot tomorrow and I could not get myself to prepare for it.
Plus, today I panicked that I would not survive this winter.
And I thought that it would be nice to talk to someone, but my captain (while I am his sergeant) was not answering his phone and I could not think of anyone else, who would have lightened my burden.
I dreamt of IKEA, by the way. I want to buy new towels for the kitchen, 'cause I love them being white and clean, and they are not since my bro's gf lived with us and obviously that was not her priority.
Yeah, tell me please how I can survive this winter and learn 100 questions in 22 hours.