Maybe I am better off alone. I bring distraction, guilt, dissonance and chaos. I am not the best I can be. I do not possess the inner strength for which I longed for so long. I am stuck and tired of asking for help while never really letting people to help me and never appreciating it. I alienate people who care for me by telling them things I should never say. I do not even have courage to say those to myself. Who am I to judge people? No, I do not have the right.
My heart needs loneliness to bleed it out in the darkness of the night. And I need people to shame me and show me how foolish I am.
Right now I am willing to give it up and fall asleep. It's not that the stuff is difficult. It's just... boring.
G'night.
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