My monologue

I write here extremely rarely lately (did I use those -ly words correctLY?).
Today I've had a monologue for about half an hour and I talked about my point of view on life and about my heroes. I talked in an empty room - for myself only (maybe some of my neighbors listened, though).
I admire a few fictional characters in my life. They are: Lelouch, Simon from TTGL, Sirano from the play that I've seen this week (played by students of my University - I loved it). There are more, but I will end the list here so that I won't need to explain why and where they are from.
I thought what similar characteristics they do have. And the point that I got was their hero behavior. So I wanted to understand what stands for this 'hero behavior' thing. And I guess that it is the honor to be a man and the respect for yourself plus belief in your own strength.
Then I thought why I admire them at all. And I think that is because I want to be like them. I want to be respected and to be respected by me first of all. I want to be a hero for myself, that is it. That was my main idea tonight.
After that I thought about what I can do to change something in my behavior and life - that is not that interesting because I should think more about that later.
I also touched some delicate problems, which I do not want to write about here (like writing, literature, my ignorance etc.)
My bro is coming soon, so I've got to go now.
One last thing: I am going to try my best to be a hero
bye-nee!