My Time Machine

My friend is back. He bought me something, but still did not decide what to give me as a souvenir from Germany, so I'm waiting (that is funny). I almost did not miss him. Almost.
Now I'm looking out of a window at the night and all the lights are trembling. Thanks *** I'm not a fly to see shimmering of the screen. Haha.
I am re-watching Japanese dorama called "Nobuta o produce" and I realised that I have accepted a lot of thoughts and ideas from the series. It is kind of like a part of my life philosophy.
At breakfast I was thinking of the time machine and I found out that I do not want to come to the past and change anything like being more studious and getting appreciation from certain profs. I do not even want to come further in the past to see what was it like in Medieval times or even earlier. I would have liked to go only to the future. To see what no one has ever seen and to know what is still unknown.
My bro said to me a little while ago that we are now as close to the singularity as we have ever been. But I doubt that it is close enough. I suppose that every minute brings us closer and the next minute is surely the closest one. It's logical. Well, I'm not optimistic this time again.
Back to my real life. I have a lot of work to do this week, but the next week will be:

1. the last week of studies before the NY and then exams (I'm planning of not going home next week and study berserk-like for the upcoming exams and zachots)
2. the last week of being a vegetarian (I'm sure you are waiting for this post as much as I do)
3. the last week of this unconditional cold weather (hopefully, it will last only till Wednesday)

I've learnt today that I will have to study for one more zachot on French and I do not know what I should do and know for it. So, this Friday I will talk to the teacher.
I admit regretting the wasted time I should have spent on thinking about studying and actually studying. But I don't think it will change anything. It's like my mum said - I will become better through time. It is just me and the world which I'm going to change. I want this world to be comfortable, safe, friendly to me. Am I being childish? Surely. I am a child. And I'm going to really change something in this world. I want to make difference. I want to breed people so that they will change for the good. I want to save their minds from rusting, I want to get them to think about what they are doing in their lives. I want to make them realise that being good to others is natural, I want to make them better persons. I want to show them the real beauty of things like love and friendship, tolerance and kindness. I want them to see the world through my eyes, to experience things that I experience. I want to help them change themselves. I want to give people part of my heart, I want them to sympathise with me.
Ok, I'm still not crying. Is it selfish to say all this? I'm sorry for being rude. I want to change myself too. I am still not the person I want to be, but I know that I am the person I made myself. And I know that I'm capable of anything. I just know that the time will come when people will listen to me and make this world a better place with me.
I do not need a time machine because I am the time machine, which is going to bring the dreamy shining future.