My Confusion

I am utterly confused. My mind is set on things it should not be.
I tell people about everything I have on my mind to ease it, sometimes I say more than I should or to people who should not hear it from me. But what can I do, actually? It's impossible to forget some certain things that happen to me, and I am positive, that I should not erase these memories.
I have a need to talk to someone, seriously. I just can't find a person to whom I can talk without embarrassing myself, who will not judge etc. And my problem is no problem at all. It's not something brutal or serious. It just tickles my mind.
I am considering talking to a person who is kind of a reason for my confusion. I'm not sure, because it seems that we have established the 'this had never happened' rule.
Just don't ask me.