My First MTG Game

My first game was awesome, 'cause I won. Well, the guy who showed me this game and explained the rules actually helped me with my spells, so it doesn't count. But still...
About smells: you know you don't like the smell, but you come to like it because at the time when the scent is here you are utterly happy, so the association become stronger. I guess, I should change that, because it sucks.
I've got an excellent mark for my course paper - the first one - but I still need to work on it before I give it in to the professor. And he agreed to me working with him next year as well.
And oh how I don't like when people touch me yet I want to touch them. And I've realized that I need to wash my hands after I touched someone. It looks just like OCD for me.
I've spoken at the conference recently and my prof. told me to be more emotional. It kicked me off and I laughed hard (as hard as I can laugh in class).
Ok, I'm off to coffee (going home tonight) and reading rules of MTG on wikipedia.
I'm making a recess in watching TBBT before I start the 3rd season.

My 20 ways to impove and make my life better

I had a peak of irritation today in the afternoon. Well, it was related to my attempts to install Kubuntu with KDE 3.5. It turned out, I made some mistakes on what to download. Well, it happens.
So, I decided to read some Steve Pavlina again. I read his article on 33-ways-to-boost-your-productivity. The volume 2 gave me an idea to create the list of 20 ways to improve myself.
Here it is:

1. cook for yourself healthy food
2. enlarge your friends circle
3. enlist in clubs
   
4. review your working habits
5. set up weekly language hours for French and Japanese
6. think about things to do at weekends (running, going to museums or something else)
7. never stay later than 10 p.m.
8. Do push-ups at some frequency
9. learn how to speak
10. be more productive at the Uni
11. be less rude and more friendly
12. exercise daily
13. get inspiration from life and relationships
14. blog every day
15. smile more
    
16. make stronger connections with family
17. take risks and try new things
18. stay optimistic, try to avoid depression by relating with others
19. try to stay focused on your goals, do everything it takes to succeed in what matters to you
20. enjoy your life =)

That's it. I like it, because it is empowering and I feel like I can do things again. It is more motivational to write one, than to read one, so it's better you write yours soon. Now.
I did not work today at all, just some daily routine like washing dishes.
On relationships: I want them. I am not sure of the subject yet, but I want to try it with him. People are hurt too easily, that's why it is so scary to develop feelings for someone. But screw this. What the life is, if not joy and frustration in an uncertain proportion. I am too lonely and too excited to wait.

My 600 Days

I am a student for 600 days today.
I do not know how to put it, but my alma mater brought me up and made me who I am now.
I wake up at 6 a.m. every morning, I eat oats, I look to my health and I shower frequently. I am proud of myself. I still have some problems, but I'm working on them.
I've read some Freud and I got to better understanding of myself. Good stuff, I'd say.
Today was a birthday of our prof of philosophy and I wrote in the book we gave her "With love, Xiena". I don't really know why I did that, but I luv her (in platonic way).
And I told Nikita that he was in my dreams. Haha. Sad.
I've read the next story by G. Martin because one class was canceled and I did not have enough concentration for any serious work.
I'm irritated and unstable today. Hope it will be better tomorrow.
I plan to go berserk on my coursepaper tomorrow.
And... and so much more stuff to do that I feel better just thinking about this.

My Rainy Days

On rainy days I always ponder over sleeping all the day long under my nice soft blanket. But - oh - don't I have the responsibility to get up and start my brand new day full of excitement and work?
I got up later these past 3 days - at 6, 8, 6 again. It will be zero С soon again. Thanks to my laziness I did not change the tires, so I'm safe.
This week I had a quest to submit the papers for the new passport for 10 years, I'm still content with the completion of this enormously hard mission.
Oh, I am scared of these new social relations. How much more can I bear till I break? I do not know. Anyway, I am uncertain about everything I do with people. And I'm getting too attached to a person, which is uncomfortable, because it is associated with pain in my mind. Fear and worry make my stomach feel funny, and I can't concentrate. But this must be the weather as well.
Ok now, Sigmund Freud is waiting for me.
Bye nee~

My more interesting physics to play...

Today I've been to the physics lecture on quantum turbulence. My first time at the faculty of physics. Plus with my all-time favorite guy, whose clothes are torn because he seems to never change them.
Anyhoo, today I felt emotionally tense because of certain things.
Today was white Wednesday with pizza, as always (there is a month of this tradition). I realized that some patterns in your behavior gives certainty and the feel of safety. No wonder, Sheldon's all good most of the time. He could have been a little bit more flexible, though.
My emotional instability shows itself again. I am on the edge of crying, feeling fear and the result of drinking beer. And yes, it looks like I'm screwing things again. Oh, I'm becoming a pro in this.

My Jordan Concept

I've never been in a normal relationship and it feels strange to hang out with someone on a regular basis. Though, I would have prefered it to be fully stated and everything talked over, but unfortunately that's not how it works between people.
The thought has crossed my mind just now - it's no fun to do things when he is not around. It is scary because no one wants to be hurt but s/he can hurt easily. Well, I'm afraid of being dependent on people because I am aware of what comes next. Pain... I guess I cannot let myself be happy, I have to depress myself till my mind is set on destruction mode. Huh.
I've slept through the first seminar of civil law and read a book at the second. I did answer twice, too. I rule. Well, it comes to me more and more lately - that I am cool and awesome. Maybe that's because I wake up at 5-30 and feel more empowered (today does not count - it rains and I was sleepy). Maybe that's because I have a person to compare myself with. Hahaha. Sorry. Maybe that's what happens when exams have passed and have been forgotten.

My Lost Traditions

I am thinking of rebuilding the custom of posting every day again.
1. This is good for tracing my life events, changes of mood and decisions of trying new things
2. It makes me think my life is full and rich
3. Posting every day relieves the stress and helps to reconsider some things, analyze the mistakes

My Madness

Today was a Mad Day for sure.
It all began with the total craziness on the parking lot near my faculty.
It proceeded with the English class and my so bad translation that I felt frustrated for at least 20 minutes after it ended. Thank Captain, I do not have translation at the exam.
Then there was the talk about relationships and some other real social life. And suddenly my life became complicated as hell.
First date occured later. And I've known the guy for a week. For a week exactly.
Oh-people-are-idiots situations were throughout the day.
And now I'm not sleeping for a required hour already. I suppose my so well started week is going to get messed up during the second half of it.

My Sleep

Ok, it's pretty embarrassing to write about the previous two weeks because I had a severe depression. But I am much better now (much better than the previous weekend for sure, it does not mean I'm all good).
Anyway, I'm going to write about my sleep instead.
My sleep patterns are not those a student has. I sleep. I sleep long and well. 8 hours a day at least. If I sleep less, I'm OK during the day, but only one day, because the next one I doze off and actually need all the sleep I did not get the previous night.
This is a rule for me. I always should get the right amount of sleep. If it's more or less - woosh! - I will be sleepy all day.
Experimenting with sleep I found out that the best sleep for me was from 9 p.m. to 5 a.m. but lately I slipped back to random sleep. And it's all due to the studies - if you don't finish them, you'll be screwed at the seminars. If you leave them for the morning you will not have all the 8 hours of the night to finish the work.
If I have to sleep little, I prefer to sleep 5 hours. I can even feel energized in the morning.
I do not drink coffee, and I keep it as a last resort for emergencies like exams. Caffeine does its job when I need it because I do not get the doses frequently.
Well, it's just that I slept yesterday all evening till morning and had to do the studies at the University before and during the seminars.
Yeah, right? (my new annoying phrase I use only in my mind to annoy myself)