My Nice Things

I made new friends! And this is so awesome! I dream about them at night and feel very happy during the day. Actually, I think I'm falling in love. Though, in one of the dreams I realized that deep inside of me there is a fear of rejection and I don't want to experience it in real life again. So, I'll try to take the beauty and happiness from this feeling, but no regrets and no harm. I have suffered a lot recently.
One of my new friends gave me a subscription at lastfm. And it was so nice of him. And the other boy complimented me, so I blushed a little: he noticed that I am reading a lot and said that I was beautiful. My old beloved friend brought a vegan sandwich for me before the lecture. I wonder why people do nice things. I mean yes, sometimes you just want to do something good for a person you like, but still...

I am not a strict vegan. This week I ate cheese and some seafood. I continue to think that veganism gives me special powers: control over my emotions and better immune system. Plus, I started to do more sports (and less studying). On the other hand, I am losing my eyesight. I hope it will become better again after a while, just like it always would.

And yes - I want to do nice things to people too. I am just wondering what I can give them. The same question actually concerns my potential future partner. What am I? And what can I give in a relationship?