My Wavering Grouds

It's like standing on unsteady land that can collapse any time very soon.
I'm not very content with what is going on in my life.
It's not that my friend at the Uni has found a boy for herself and I am somewhat left out (nah, that's just that I'm pretty jealous towards... well, anyone).
In my head there is some crisis in our relationships with my beloved one. I don't see where we are heading with all that stuff. Any whoo, we are doing pretty well. He even started reading Harry Potter that I gave him. I plan to give him my fav book and discuss it with him. It's Richard Bach 'Illusions', by the way.
My sleep patterns are chaotic. More than that I sleep in random places lately. Not very random, but his, my bro's and my parents' homes are all different. Where is my home? Who knows.
There's also some uncertainty with the matters of my future work.
And I am so disorganized lately. I so don't like this, but living in different places makes you kind of flexible (if you can count it as a synonym for 'disorganized').
Ah, is it the time I start asking myself questions like 'What am I? What I am capable of doing?' etc.
Don't you feel it too - this chaos of your life? And everything it does is delay some simple and small tragedy that will shatter your world and you'll fall below to find yourself in the darkness of your soul, all alone.