My 2013 goals

Yes, I am doing this again. Last year I decided to skip this part and I regret it. New Year is a good time to set goals and then you can always come back and modify them, but goals set randomly like 'from Monday I start a new life' rarely work for me.

In 2013 I will:

1. Read at least one book in two weeks
2. Learn how to play harmonica or at least provide these wonderful sounds with it
3. Write a few new stories and continue working on a novel
4. Build a blog about my crafts and create more things with my hands
5. Speak fluently in another language
6. Establish a healthy sports routine
7. Cook for myself more than eating out during week days
8. Wake up early so that I am not late for work or appointments
9. Find ways of making money without going to the office
10. Invest more time in building and maintaining relationships with people

My LLM plans

I've passed TOEFL last Saturday, now I'm waiting for the results. Then I'll have to do smart management of documents and apply to Universities for LLM. I'd like to go to the USA or Great Britain, but I have some other choices, too: Helsinki, Dublin, a few Universities in New Zealand. I am not sure yet, but I guess (and hope) I will have a pretty much the same choice I once had - being accepted to two or more universities.

I would like to have a better experience than I had during my previous time in the Uni. Like getting to know more people, pursuing more opportunities, being more open and active. I like to think that I can still have that.

Also, living in a different country looks like an exciting adventure! 

My Constant Reminder

Sometimes (quite frequently) I fall down, feeling pity for myself and crying. I start doing dumb things. But there is always something that pushes me back to the surface - like my friends and this unbreakable chain of love I feel for the world and life. I might not always realize it, but my life is filled with love. It is amazing. And that's for what I should stand up again, every time. 

I just need a constant reminder that good things exist, because I am forgetful.

I have seen Safety Not Guaranteed today. It was good! They did travel in time in the end, so I am completely satisfied with the movie. It had a good soundtrack and writing was obviously well-done. I've been waiting for this movie for a while and it did not disappoint me.

I think I become geekier with time. And I'm 21 already! I should be like a responsible adult. But I will continue to play Portal and meet with my D&D party on Sundays no matter what others say, because it makes me happy. And my philosophical position states I should not judge people for things that make them happy, thus I shall continue to pursue happiness myself without any judgment whatsoever.

And so I am off to try to combine adulthood with fun.

My Personal Talks

I've talked to the guys I was seeing. And I've told them both that I can't commit right now due to my plans to study abroad.

There are several other reasons, too. One of them is that I'm not in love.

I have ended the relationship with one of them. I'm going to miss him, because we tried to date several times and every time I initiated our separation. We just do not suit each other. We have different interests and jokes. I am a geek and nerd and he thinks most of my activities are stupid and a waste of time while playing computer games is obviously not. I just think that our time together was kind of wasted, too. We both can find a better partner in crime life.  And his inclination to cliches got me freakin irritated last time we met.

When we had this final conversation he told me not to be sad. And that's the second time a boy had said that to me. 

The other guy said that it did not really matter because it was all good. And I will try to sustain a relationship with him. A healthy one. Or not if he would not be satisfied with what I can give.