My Need to Talk

I need to talk to someone, who'll understand what I'm going through right now. I actually have put me in that situation myself, but anyway. I feel like a lost pony in a forest with rainbow-colored trees (really feels like that).
Strangely enough I do not miss my bf now, though he is working hard and we did not see each other since Monday (not strange - little time have passed). But I still wonder if there is a person somewhere in the world who'll suit me perfectly (damn you, R. Bach for your ideas of the One, though I might have misunderstood them).
And I've been watching too much of GG lately, which drives me crazy. It takes a lot of time that I would like to spend on thinking about stuff (or doing homework for classes).
Plus I now have my - you won't believe it, cause I don't believe it myself - personal diary. I just love to fill in these small pages with cute lines, and the paper is so good and thick. But I promise I will not give up on writing here, because I still like blogging.

My Loose Ends

Today I:

• did 5/8 tasks for civil law (which is a high percentage of completion)
• grew in understanding of economics (great accomplishment comparing to the past experience at this class)
• payed for mobile
• fueled the car (it was tremendously empty)
• went to English class and spoke there, even tried to get into an argument over the jury function in judicial process, but got interrupted by professor; everyone looked at me after my speech for it was good, and it will, indeed, be better
  
• met with a friend and ate pizza
• drank tea with my beloved, played MTG with him and was all lovey-dovey
  

I don't want to be arrogant, but I am good.
But I still have some more loose ends to deal with: pay for the flat, try to eliminate Wednesday todos or lower them to a minimum, think about tires for winter, apply for a corsepaper at last...
And though I did not encounter the first snow (for I was at home, doing civil law), I still got enough cold to my hands and ears. I'll find my gloves in the morning.
So that will be it.

My Timeturner

I hope with all my heart I will have no need to use my personal timeturner. Just kidding. It is illegal nowadays, anyway.
The thing is, I start my work tomorrow (10 hours per week min). Plus I signed up for the legal English courses (twice a week, 1,5 hours each class).
And I want to spend as much time with my beloved as I can (will not have any time-limit here).
And everything in my life is so dear to me that I cannot think of setting priorities. Everything matters and is really important.
Yesterday I won 2 out of 3 MTG games that I had with my beloved, which saddened him, but I was on fire! And I ate pumpkin, that his mother cooked. It was delicious.
I feel slightly guilty for oversleeping today and for not doing my house chores properly. Moreover, I skipped Uni today. I am doomed now. I will have to send an e-mail with all the tasks to the professor, never mind the lecture. And the time for coursepaper has come, too.
But no, I will not panic, no way. And I will try not to use the timeturner too frequently.

My SH

Yup, I have finally watched the first episode of that new British show about Sherlock Holmes. They actually made me a fan of the show during the last few minutes of the ep. That's not fair. I almost decided to stop at the first one, but I'm getting the next one already.
Anyhoo, it's kind of frustrating to know that I am not thinking as much as I could and waste my time on... stuff. While I could have done so much things and do them so much better. I could have been anyone.

If we did all the things we are capable of doing, we would literally astonish ourselves. ~ Thomas Alva Edison

What is motivation? Is it anger, love, some high-pitch emotion inside your head? Is it a tragedy in the past? Or are those things were just made up by the dreamers who have never encountered it in their lives? Was that cliché created by the thinkers? Those, who could just lay down and think their brains out, making up stories and things that never happened? People with time and willpower?
Oh, whatever. I am ill and tired. And I skipped classes today. Again.