Monday, June 29, 2009

My 300

The day has come. I've been waiting for it. My 300 days at University.
It's not a year, I know, but 300 days are enough to see the impact on somebody's life.
Now I'm going to make a list of things that I've enjoyed/experienced during these 300 days.
  1. I got acquainted with a lot of people and (what's more important) talked to a great amount of people, too. I also have some friends now, which is totally fun.
  2. I began doing sambo, this is not the greatest thing maybe, but for me it was a huge challenge - both physical and mental.
  3. I participated in one game of WWW, which was fun, but I dropped it anyway.
  4. I failed an exam, which was one of the greatest accomplishments, lol. But anyway, I got a lot of experience going through this. And I mean it.
  5. I left my home (how could I forget about it) for some other place which can be called 'home' as well. I enjoyed it very much and got vital experience of living alone or almost alone and managing all the things by myself i.e. studying, cooking, shopping, cleaning, washing, sleeping and getting up on my own (or almost).
  6. All the exams were challenging, no doubt about that. Some of them were more interesting, but still, as always, I had fun.
  7. Not getting scholarship was... painful. Though, I know that I did not put enough effort in it. If only I was more self-confident at the time, I would have made it. Anyway, I will try harder and break the system next time.
  8. I attended optional courses both semesters, though I backed out in the last semester and did not do an exam for that.
  9. I went to the role-playing club once and had some of their training. Haha, that was fun.
  10. I worked hard, sometimes harder than I had to, but sometimes I slacked off and got hurt in the end. But generally, that was good to experience the year at University.
  11. I ate a lot of chocolate and caffeine, I swear, I had never had so much of that during my whole previous life. Chocolate bars at University and caffeine during exams, nah. I have to reconsider my diet, alright.
  12. I got ill once in every semester. Though, it was not that harsh, I only had high temperature for 3-4 days maximum. I did not skip classes much.
  13. I was praised for my English. That was great - to feel that you are better than others at something.
  14. I went to the students' theater, which was good and I liked it.
  15. I never confessed to anyone in 300 days. I don't really know if it suits the list, but anyway, that's true.
  16. I wrote some articles for students' council.
Overall, I became more mature and stronger physically (I did some push-ups and sambo helped me a lot) and mentally (I got through much strain and struggle during these 300 days and had a lot of problems, most of them solved now).
And that's how my 300 days at University passed. I will never say that it was fast, but I had much more to do and still have a lot of plans and dreams which are yet to be brought to real life.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

My immense power

You say we're not responsible
But we are, we are, we are, we are
(c) Ana Johnsson - We are

Yesterday i thought about what I would have done if I had an immense power of any kind. The first thing that came to my mind was that Hollywood-like scene with crashing and falling walls and buildings etc. But I am against destruction - that's totally not the thing to do when you can do so much better. I guess that's what comics have been telling us all the time, huh?

But the thing is... I am weak.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

My long depression

I am still sad about my last exam result.
For the last few days I've been thinking that it was pointless - those hours at the library (so, I haven't done anything for the upcoming exam yet). Well, I know that in the end I had fun. I mean I loved the subject, I loved that I had so much work to do on my own, I loved my professor... But now I kinda think that I did not get what I deserved for my hard work and it hurts inside of me whenever I think/read something that reminds me of the subject. I guess I will understand it more when I think about it for some time.
That's kind of strange, but I think I will still do my best next time. Next time...

Friday, June 19, 2009

My Daily Quotes

I have a lot of quotation RSS on my gmail now.
One of them is:

Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm.
Sir Winston Churchill

It is just... to think over some time.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

My seconds

Second, second. Nice word, dunno what it means though. Just kidding, but I have some moments when I stare at some word or say it a few times in a row and then begin thinking the word is meaningless. Don't you have such moments?
No, no, no. I still don't want anybody to know what I have inside. That's not the reason I am writing the second post.
I just wanted to leave a message for some of you:
THERE IS NO PLACE TO RUN. No one is gonna save you. No one. Don't wait for it. No one will come and I feel that I will not come as well. I am sorry. I am no help. You did not come and save me too.

Or maybe I have to reconsider my policy?..

My lots of thoughts

I won't have my money next semester as well. I am damned >_<
Anyway, I did not get 'Good' and it was my fault, of course.
I just thought a lot of thoughts since I got my mark, but right now I am not in the mood to write about it. I don't know why. Maybe that's just what he said to me - I am proud. And this exam is the only one that had me smile like this - being a little bit happy and a little bit sad.

P.S. His logic sure has some mistakes. Or maybe that's just that I don't get it.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

My Hamlet Role

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. Aristotle

I am sooo lazy. In these 3 days I learned almost nothing. Damn. I'm not gonna make this, am I? All the previous results are nothing compared to this failure. I don't know nothing. AAAA!!!

This is what my panic mode is inside my head. And when it strikes, I wander around the house like Hamlet saying quasi-quotations on how miserable and pointless the life is.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

My Noblesse Oblige

I got 'Excellent' at the subject that I failed the previous semester. I got my revenge on her (muahaha). Also, I had a date with the most beautiful girl in my group (I doubt she thought of it so, but I paid for French fries and cola) so I'm kinda happy.
French fries rule X) I've wanted to eat them for a long time. Since watching some Scrubs, I guess.
Argh. Now that I got Good and Excellent I have to get only those marks for these exams. Because I want money ToT